Lost

I've had this song stuck in my head for a very long time now; it's the song "Lost" by Michael Bublé.

"Lost" - Michael Bublé

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear the cross
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

The thing of it is; I really don't think I can say that I was as there for Misty as I should have been.  As I could have been.  Honestly, I'd say this song fits me better:

"Let You Down" - Three Days Grace

Trust me

There’s no need to fear

Everyone’s here

Waiting for you to finally be one of us

Come down...

You may be full of fear

But you’ll be safe here

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

I will let you down

I’ll let you down, I’ll

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

Trust me

I’ll be there when you need me

You’ll be safe here

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

I will let you down

I’ll let you down, I’ll

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

I will let you down

I’ll let you down, I’ll

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

Never want to come down

Never want to come down

Never want to come down

(Down, let you down)

I will let you down

I’ll let you down, I’ll

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

I will let you down

I’ll let you down, I’ll

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

That probably fits what really happened a lot better.  I really can't help but think that I probably did wind up being something of a disappointment as a boyfriend.

But it all leads me around in circles with questions; questions with no answers, or at least none that I can find myself.  I'm not even sure where I could begin, to be honest about it.  One question I know I've asked myself a lot, and it's a question that's being a little...presumptuous, I guess.  But I've often asked myself; what then?  It's a question bearing an answer only if things change and Mist and I manage to bridge this rift that's grown between us; and, also, only holds an answer if she wants to bridge that chasm.  Which, I'll admit, is another question I don't know the answer to; and is one that needs answered long before the other is even considered.  Although, in a rather strange sort of way, I guess it has it's relevance to the situation now, as well.  Because, the answer to that question determines whether or not to follow any of the other questions too.  Do we try to go back to what we were, what we used to have?  This one...this one I already have my own answer to; no.  I don't want to go "back" to something that was, at least partially, broken enough to lead to the way things are.  I want to build something stronger; better than what we had.